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Friday, February 26, 2010

Week 6 breaking Free

Last week in week 5 on day 3 it about killed me. There are tear stains in my book! This week in week 6 day 3 had me walking on clouds! I have felt so good this week from this weeks study! Listen to this my friends!

Song of Songs 10 My lover spoke and said to me, "Arise. My darling, My beautiful one, and come with Me. 11 See! The winter is past; the rains are over and gone. 14 Show me your face, let me hear your voice; for your voice is sweet and your face lovely. 4:1 How beautiful you are my darling! Oh, How beautiful!5 Your two breast are like two fawns, like twin fawns of a gazelle that browses among the lilies. 7 There is no flaw in you. 8 Come with me from Lebanon my bride, from the lions' dens.

How amazingly beautiful is that? How often do we long to hear how beautiful we are? How often after child rearing and age do we look at our bodies and think wow everything has gone south. Well reread that passage. God made us BEAUTIFUL! For us to be down on how we look we are down on how Christ made us and his love for his brides! We ladies are his bride. Beth more hit it this week I tell ya! She states "She has made herself ready." God's Word doesn't imply that we are to make ourselves ready for the wedding but for the Groom. Remember, making ourselves ready means studying and knowing our Groom! Ladies Jesus is our Groom! We prepare ourselves for our earthly groom so why do we sometimes lack to prepare ourselves for our heavenly Groom? Get into his word and be surprised at how good it will make you feel! Need to feel like a lovely woman? Read the Song of Songs. WOWOWOWOW!!!!!!!!! Yesterday I felt amazing! I felt beautiful! I felt like I was glowing! I pray I continue to remember how well Jesus heals the brokenhearted!

I have a few prayer request as well.

My little girl Reagan is 2. She has had a horrible cough and a super bad runny nose. We have been doing breathing treatments and so forth. Last night she spiked a fever of 104.8. I was up every 4 hours with her through the night just to keep the fever below 102. This morning she says her right ear hurts when i ask her what hurts. She is going to the doctor at 4:45 today. Must be a lot of sick babies out there!

As well my husband has a ear infection and we are praying his doctor will just call in a antibiotic.

Alexander does his first therapy session today to strengthen his leg from having to wear a brace for it.

Please pray for strength for me and that I will have compassion cause its running thin.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Because I wanted to share

I love my family so much. They are what I have wanted my whole life. Don't get me wrong I am human and there are days I want to run away! But we do enjoy one another and I wanted to share more of the science center with you!

St. Louis Science Center

Last weekend it got up to the 50's here so we hopped in the Suburban and went to the St.Louis MO Science Center. My boys are 10 and had never been there and were totally WOWed! Our daughter didn't know which way to run! I decided to make this digital scrapbook page to share their fun. The dinosaurs on the page will be the ones you can download if you choose!

Dino 1 Head alone

Big Dino

Dino with tennis shoes

Monday, February 22, 2010

Week 5 Breaking Free

Week 5 of breaking free. This honestly has been the hardest thing I have gone through! Day 3 about killed me! Or so I thought it was going to. I never imagined a bible study bringing me to tears so bad I would go through half a roll of toilet paper and both my boys hugging me at once begging me to tell them what is wrong. Some things we just can not share with our kids but God led me to open up to my husband about some areas of my life. Thank the good Lord he didn't reject me (is the only way I can think to put it). We have been married 16 years. I think he was a little confused as to why I had not told him sooner and why I had not been honest about some other things. But had I been honest about other things this ugly truth would of came out. Some things in life we bury soooo deep and we cover it up so much with lies it opens a whole bucket of worms when we come to the point we need to let it out! I knew these things were hindering me and holding me back. I NEVER confessed to anyone but the Lord. I am 36 years old and had told NO ONE! It felt so good though to let another human know I was violated when I was a child SEVERAL times by different people. I was 7 years old the first time. To not have to keep it to myself anymore, to be able to say hey yes this happened to me and now I can move on. I will never forget some areas of my life but I refuse to let them hold me back any farther and I refuse to let my offenders keep me down! Satan can now move on from this aspect of my life he no longer has control! And now here I openly tell all of you. I am not telling you these things on this blog to get sympathy or pats on the back for growing. I am telling you these things in case you too need to be set free! If this has happened to you and you have not told. TELL even if you are 36 years old TELL! You were the victim not the guilty person. It is not something to be ashamed about YOU did nothing wrong! I was a child and so wasn't you! Start with the closest person to you God! Then go to the closest human to you! You will be surprised by the support! As well if you want someone who does not "know" you at all I am here to talk just e-mail me!
And now for your file. How about a little lamb?


Monday, February 1, 2010

A card for my sister in law

I want to have you all apart of my life. My sister in law was my best friend and we had a falling out back in October. After a testimony I heard last night at church I realized it was time to try and mend this relationship. I beg of you all if there is hard feelings with someone in your life ask yourself if you helped fester those feelings and if you truly in your heart miss that certain someone. if so remember life is short. Please reach out to them before you cant! Here is her card.

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